So that’s it. Exam season for me is finally over and what’s done is done. I know I haven’t done as well as I would have liked but I shall take this as part of the learning process for the journey.
It’s been an interesting first semester to say the least, deciding to move at the beginning, all the trials and adjustment that came with that. Constant tiny human illness and the eternal struggle trying to catch up on the work. But I am getting there. Little by little making my way.
My mindset is improving and techniques evolving. It will never be easy, a single mum, an unrelenting illness and all that comes with them both. But I am stronger every day and I have the support and love of my family and friends.
My mum is my rock, I’m not sure where I’d be without her and I’m so glad to be near her again.
So onwards and upwards! Bring on semester 2 😀
So today is my first exam of my degree and I’ve tried to prepare best I can. To be fair it’s been over 15 years since I’ve sat proper exams so a bit out of practise here! (Getting old lol)
But then comes the decision between being distracted by pain or distracted by painkillers.
Living with fibromyalgia is a daily struggle. Some days you can wake up functional and “okay” and others in a world of pain or fatigue (okay the worst days both). And it doesn’t discriminate. A big date? You’re birthday? Big exam. It doesn’t care.
So what do you do on those days? Sometimes you have to decide to give them a miss, take the rest and wait for next time. But the things you can’t avoid? Power through? Take the drugs and deal best you can? Or do you need a clear mind so dealing with the pain is all you can do.
I’m lucky today is a medium day. I can deal with the pain so far in order to keep my head clear, but next week I might not be so lucky? Who knows x
It’s that time of year again. Where our wallets are lighter but our tummies not so 😦
Whilst my new vegan lifestyle has managed to help me reign in a little on the over the holiday period, I am certainly not without my gains. There is a whole world of vegan junk food, along with “accidentally vegan” products like some pot noodles, oreos and much more, it is very easy to eat like crap. Oh and I did, do, will. Yeah lets not deny it!
But I want to do something about it. I have always had incredible issues with my body image and self esteem, and whilst I am the lightest I have been in six years, I still have a fair way to go before I am “healthy”.
So the blues are well and truly settled in at the moment. The days are dark and gloomy. Purse strings are tight and so is my waistline.
Well as per the cliche, a gym membership is in order! Unfortunately I also suffer with a condition called Fibromyalgia, which means any given day I could wake up in a world of pain or have weeks of endless fatigue for absolutely no reason other than that is just the way it is for me, and millions like me. But I will try, I want to and need to.
I’ve also found out about a local aerial hoop class which I have always wanted to try, so I am super excited about this!
Exams are creeping up too, so added stress there to burn away on the treadmill.
I also need to get writing more, this post itself is proof of my inability to provide flowing content at the moment (and I apologise, stick with me ok?) so more practice and more determination needed all around.
Just gotta keep swimming right?
When I started this new blog I had huge plans. I was going to document every step of the way in my new life and journey as a science student.
Then life happened.
It has been a huge learning curve the last few months to say the least. Deciding to relocate at the last minute, the obstacles that came with that, rotation of illnesses in my children and trying to catch up with lectures and assignments.
It has been tough, but I have made it through.
I achieved a First mark in my first module which I am so proud of, as I really didn’t think, with everything going on, that I had even passed let alone done so well.
I don’t know how well I have kept this up but it is a positive step and I hope my dreams of a First class honors degree are attainable. Just got to keep swimming right?
Anyway, as things are slowly starting to settle, the house is almost sorted, the kids are in routines and I am finding more time to study properly, I hope to find more time to write about my life and experiences. My journeys in science, veganism and single parenthood, and anything else I may wish!
New Year, New Start, New Me?