This crazy life

A lot has happened to me in the last year. Things that have shaped and changed me. Some things have brought me back to who I was years ago, made me more me I guess.

I spent many years unhappy, in a relationship that was toxic, in a life that was merely existing. It’s not easy to escape those things and it took me a long while to do so.

It is a long and complicated story and not one I will go in to now but basically it brings us to where I am at now. A first year Biomedical student, single mum of two, freshly moved area and with a set of ideals that challenge me daily on my chosen path.

When I left my ex husband at the beginning of the year, I instantly went vegetarian. It was an easy decision stemming from years of inner conflict and one that I am so at peace with. I had already been trying to avoid dairy for months previously, the treatment, torture and death involved in the dairy industry was one I couldn’t abide with so the transition to veganism seemed the logical next step. I’m not perfect and my journey is still in transition. Finding alternatives, looking at new ways of cooking and generally working within my budget were all hurdles I had to overcome in order to pursue this new ideal.

It is a lot easier these days, there are a lot more vegan stores and restaurants around, things are more clearly marked (Sainbury’s in particular are amazing for marking their own stuff when vegan!) and information is shared amongst others on the internet.

The two main obstacles I have found in this pursuit is cost, something that has improved as I have adapted and found more out, and on the go. Finding alternatives when you go about your daily lives or are invited to events/training/conferences.

All these issues could write a post (or several) in themselves so I will probably tackle them from time to time that way.

Science is huge hurdle. I have always been passionately against animal testing. I wrote half my personal statement in application for university on this very basis. Speaking to lecturers before I started and being assured I wouldn’t have any conflict with my beliefs on the course made me feel better. So imagine my surprise/horror/disgust at being presented with heart dissection on my first day. Not a good way to start my university life I tell you!
I spoke up, made my concerns known but have to say I felt mildly humiliated, and spent the entire class sat with my head down trying desperately not to look around and the death and decay. I shed tears.

Luckily my classmates were lovely and despite my crazy vegan ways I have made friends 🙂

I have hurdles to cross, it won’t be easy but I am determined to be the change I want to see. I will need to do some further research and at this time there may not be much change I can enact but who knows what the future can hold? It is crazy the positions this life can put you in, but it’s what you take from them, the way you handle it and grow. This is what breaks, or makes us.

The girl who sciences

Just over a year ago I started an access course in science. I had plans to pursue a nursing degree and settle down into a little career for me and my family.

Flash forward a year and so much has changed. I fell back in love with science, something that hadn’t been at the forefront of my mind for over 10 years, left an abusive marriage, moved area and began to align my passions and beliefs. I found me again.

So here I am, a first year Biomedical student, mother and passionate animal lover.

Oh yeah and caffeine addict.